Will You Marry Me

Last week Jackson spent the weekend with his Nana in Orlando. The kids had a great time at Sea World and it gave Christian and I some time to relax. I drove down Sunday morning to get the kids and on the way home Jackson became inquisitive about marriage. He started asking questions about when Daddy and I got married, if we had to kiss, and why I decided to get married. I wasn't exactly sure where he was going with his questions and at 4 years old I wasn't about to get into any more detail so I quickly pointed to some cows for him to look at out the window. The next day we were in the car with the babysitter and he started asking her questions about diamonds. "What are they", "What do they look like?" "Why do people like them?", etc. Again, I didn't think anything of it. Later that night Christian took Kathy with him to the store while Jackson and I had some "Mommy" time. I think he must of missed me during his time away in Orlando because he was so excited about his one on one time. After playing for a little while I decided to feed him his dinner and I sat down with him at the table while he ate. he kept looking at me with his big brown eyes like he had something to tell me. After a few pauses in conversation he finally asked me something about why I married Daddy. I told him that I loved him and he quickly responded that he loved me too. I told him that I loved both him and Kathy too but then he responded that he loved me more than Daddy loves me. Ok...where was this going?? Sure enough he asked if he could look at my ring. I took it off and let him look at it. I told him it belonged to his grandmother but I think he was preoccupied with his own thoughts. He took the ring and stood up in front of me. He then told me that I needed to be married to him. I told him I was already married to Daddy but he didn't seem to care. Then he quickly got down on one knee and did the sign of the cross with a big smile on his face. I wasn't really sure why he did that until he said... does that make you happy? We had been working on his prayers lately and apparently he was trying to remember anything he could do that would make me proud of him in hopes that would persuade me to marry him. I knew this was no joke and the serious look on his face made me realize I needed to be gently but firm on my response. I Jackson that I loved Daddy, him, and Kathy more than anything in the world and that one day he was going to find a girl he would like even more than he likes being with Mommy. He didn't believe me and immediatly looked to the ground in embarrassment. I can't believe I have broken my 4 year old's heart.. About 5 minutes later in the conversation he sprung back to life and asked if we could go out on another Mommy and Jackson date tomorrow. I shook my head Yes. The wonderful joys of little boys.

Once Again

I have tried blogging in the past and it has gone by the way side. I have a cute story to post when I have a little more time and come to think of it there are lots of wonderful stories I would like to remember. Hopefully I will get better at blogging and make it a habit.